Saturday, April 15, 2006
Great, I just realized something today, I want to recognised when I die, I want to be known for what I have done because I am going to led a life worth mentioning, I am not going to spent my remaining years pondering over silly questions like "should I eat rice or noodle?".
I am sure everyone wants to be remembered for something, there is no one in this world who would want to lead a life like a coward , never leaving his/her shell. Even people like that hope to be remembered deep in their hearts no one would every wish that their life was just like a dream, "can and go and forgotten". And if anyone were to tell me that" Hey, you are wrong , I don't want to be remembered." Maybe that person is not thinking deep enough right to the middle of his/her heart where all the dreams,desires,hopes are kept and never were they released cause everyone is scared of failure. They don't dare to fall , afraid of how they would slip into darkness afraid of how others would see them. Many times I hear people saying " wow, look at her,she is so successful , bet its due to her good luck which I lack." To these people , I say" PLS@!!! GET A LIFE!! STOP BEING ENVIOUS OF PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE THEY DARE TO REACH OUT FOR THEIR DREAMS AND YOU BEING A COWARD DON'T DARE TO DO SO!!!" so I guess that would not happen to me, I want to reach out for my dream,maybe I am afraid of failures to but as I type I think I can cope.
BTW sucide should not be a crime it should just be one's stupid decision to escape from reality and selfish decision to make people around them sad.
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Friday, April 14, 2006
I got tagged by minling so it goes:
Name 20 ppl you can think of right now at the top of yr head. Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 ppl. ok tag at least 5 ppl..
1) Atobe
2) Keita
3) Kimura
4) Kim Jae Joong
5) Tezuka
6) Fuji
7) Ryoma
8) Clarice
9) Min Ling
10) Cassandra
11) Cinny
12) Stephanie
13) Jirou
14) Carine
15) Wan Qin
16) Lisa
17) Ernest
18) Kah Wai
19) Fang Ying
20) Miss Ow
Don't know why but just started naming all the people I like first like ATOBE!!!!! If you name is on the lsit it doesnt mean anything AND PLS!!! It does not mean that I am in love with you or what , dun read so much into it.
Questions:
1.how did u meet 14?
She was in my sec 2 class.
2.what would you do if u've never met 1?
I would live a life if regrets and misery cause I have yet to meet the hottest person in the world and yet to know what is pretty and nice!!!
3.what would u do if 20 and 9 dated?
OMG!!! If Min Ling ever dates Miss Ow, I will DIE!!! I mean OMG it is so gross but I am sure Miss Ow would be the guy and Min Ling the girl...OMG it is just so gross!!
4.did u ever lik 19?
I like Fang YING??? DEfinitely but as a friend and nothing more.
5.would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
Fuji and Ernest??? NO WAY!!! IF FUJI were to date anyone it should be atobe or tezuka I mean Fuji is so pretty why should he go wif Ernest?? He sould date the pretty guys only then will they make a good couple and Fuji is too tall for ernest!!
6.Describe 3.
hot, Hot, HOt, HOT, HOT but old....
7.Do u tink 8 is attractive?
YES!!! Clarice is so attractive that I am attracted to her not because of how she looks but because I just like her.
8.Tell me sth about 7.
Arrogant, short, snobbish, n stupid green hair monster!!!
9.Do you know any of 12's family?
She has a sister in the same school and a brother in sec one and her parents seems to be really nice people.
10.What's 8's favourite?
Not really that sure but I guess she like english rock (NOT ROCK-pop) Eyeliner, punkish stuff, and not really sure about the rest.
11. what would u do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
Die on the spot, find a way to kill myself before it grosses me out!!! NOt that he is a really horrible person but I just can't stand scenes like that.
12.what language does 15 speak?
English and Chinese as I know. keita!!! Pretty BOYS!!!
13.Who is 9 going out with?
Miss Ow???(HAHA!!!) Dun think she is going out with anyone, is she??
14.how old is 16 now?
14???
15.When's the last time u talked to 13?
Never? Perhaps because I dont speak Jap and he doesnt speak english? jae joong!!!!
16.what is 2's favourite band/singer?
Not sure, Orange range?? But he is my favourite singer
17.would u ever date 4?
Maybe but I guess I would feel inferior cause he looks so pretty.
18.would u ever date 7?
NO!!! never!!! kill me!!!!
19.Is 15 single?
I think so?
20.What is 10's last name?
lee?not very sure
21. would u ever want to be in a serious relationship with 11?
Never!! I dont really like eggs( hah) but i like cinny....
22. was sch does 2 go to?
He doesnt go to school.
23. where does no 6 live?
Japan?? animeworld?
24. wad's ur favourite thing abt 5?
He is in my favourite anime and he is just so cool...
25. hav u seen no 1 naked?
NO!!! I dont think i want to do so cause I am not so sick..
people i am going to tag: Clarice, Min Ling , Cassandra, Cinny and Ernest.
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4:01 AM
Monday, April 10, 2006
This whole thing is dedicated to MINLING!!! ATOBE ROCKS!!! HE IS THE BEST!!! RYOMA SUCKS TO THE CORE!!! (CAZ HE DOES)!!!
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Updates: My links still do not work don't know why but I am looking for a solution.
Topic: Life is so good, I am sitting at home right now shaking my legs!! Thought about something after listening to something ,someone around me attempted sucide but that person was saved in the end. This set me thinking why does that person want to end his/her life. I mean all the while people around him/her had always been very caring and nice, cant find a reason why he/she wants to die.
BUt there is one thing that I know, I would never ever commit sucide cause I feel that there is too much in life that I have not experienced I would rather experience more before dying. Besides I think I'm too young to die, I have a life to lead my dying, I am just showing people around me what a discontented person I'm ( not like I care what others think about me that much but still...) Besides I have yet to find the perfect way to die, I had a few options but I crossed out all cause they all seemed so painful and what I want is a peaceful and happy death, like dying in my sleep . I always envied people who died in their sleep cause I feel that in this way I would then be trapped in that happy dream that I have with no pain and suffering!!! AHHH!!! love that idea!!!
Conclusion???- I wouldnt die young!!
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