rants abt life..facts or fiction??

2006-12-01T18:10:00.000-08:00

DBSK-Balloons MV

A really cute video by dong bang shin ki. I think its something about growing up . Anyway as quoted from my sister " who can be so cute and get away with it?"
Only dong bang shin ki!

2006-10-17T03:26:00.000-07:00

DBSG - Miss You PV

My current favourite which I had been bugging many to watch...therefore its a MUST WATCH!!!

2006-10-17T03:21:00.000-07:00

DBSG - Miss You PV

The music video I have been bugging everyone to watch!!! MUST WATCH!! ESPECIALLY THOSE WHOM I HAD BUGGED

2006-10-17T03:11:00.000-07:00

Battle Royale Trailer

AHHH! My favourite movie ever...

nothing much to say

2006-07-22T00:03:00.000-07:00

Recently I realized that many people can't spell. You know why? Cause apparently they spell 'you' as ;euuu' and 'I' as 'iieee' or something like that. This definitely shows why the government should try to improve their English. I know that I do not speak perfect English and sometimes it is qutite a torture reading what I wrote because of my lousy spelling and grammer. I think I have a problem but these people has a BIGGER problem as compared to me. And I thought I was bad.

Updates: I have to do a dumb presentation on my work experience in front of the entire school and worst still , act as though I really liked the whole work experience thing. OHH! ELDDS was the champion for the fire prevention thing.

Main: Haven't been posting much recently. Realized that my shop was not popular at all ( ok face it, no one even bought anything from me; point proven not a good businesswomen)

hey! just wanted to ask any of you whether anyone realized that I was super depressed at the end of last year( not like anyone would read this but never mind) I still remember everyone was taking photos and all but I did not want to join in cause just felt really sad (not because of the spiltting of 2e2 trust me, I don't really care about things like that) anyway I was just so upset and I played the hand slapping game with someone until my hand was sore and red . This might sound dumb but during that period of time, I realized that no one seemed to realized that I was super depressed not even my family. Just thought about that as I was watching the 2e2'05 video . Saw my photo and remembered maybe I am just too annoying, too loud, too irritating, too wan zhen ....maybe. But this is what makes me different , just WAN ZHEN

suckers!!

2006-06-17T23:52:00.001-07:00

I recently found out that lots of people around me is trying really hard to "fit in" and I am getting really sick of it!! To those people, GET A LIFE!!!! Stop trying to pretend to be someone you are not cause that will not get you anywhere. And to all those out there who thinks work experience is fun , a piece of advice for you: CHILD-LABOUR!!!I had mine in the Bird Park and I really hated it , giving you the worst job of all like cleaning the storeroom, I felt like an odd-job worker.
Main topic: I recently set up an online store you guys can visit it if you like , I am basically selling some stuff and if you find the price way too high , you can tell me , I would give you a discount .

Sub-topic:The holidays are ending and I am reminded of how sucky school is, with all those wannabes who can't make it and those self-absorbed people constantly trying their best to show how much they are worth(perhaps a cent or two)

suckers!!

2006-06-17T23:52:00.000-07:00

superficial

2006-06-01T05:14:00.000-07:00

Problem: People around me being SUPERFICIAL!!!
Recently I realized the people around me has huge problems!!!They are so damn bloody superficial, it really pisses me off to think how stupid these people are, how silly and dumb they are by being superficial. Firstly ,someone rattles on about how fat I am, not like I really care but seriously what is the obssession with your weight? I mean my way to life is as long as you are healthy and happy then there should be no problem. Like seriously, does the way I look affect you in any single way? If you get really sick when you look and my face,you can get out of my sight, not like I really care about what others think about me. And this leads to the topic on plastic surgery, it was first invented for people who had either undergo accidents or operations causing them to become disfigured, but apparently many people is misusing it. Talk about medical advancements..how it makes everyone become so superficial. With this I have come up with a list of things that pisses me off.

1) SUPERFICIAL PEOPLE!!
As mentioned above, so to anyone who belongs to the above category, I would love to tell you to get a life

2) PEOPLE TRYING SO HARD TO FIT IN THAT THEY LOSE THEMSELVES!!!
A problem connected to the above one about how people change not because they like but in order to be accepted by the majority. To these people, if you really want to be accepted, be yourself, stop being an asshole and playing the self-decieving game .

3) DISCRIMINATATION
This a simple word but many still do not get it, in my school of thought, everyone is equal and nothing makes you more equal then the others.

4) LIARS
I hate liars!!!

5)NOT ACCEPTING HOMOSEXUALS
They said that we should accepts others for who they are but apparently many people is not doing so, they look down on homosexuals !!! I believe that as long as you find true love and not harming anyone else , then I totally support you, whoever said that a man must find a woman to have happiness , at least I do not believe in that!

6) PEOPLE DESTROYING PRIVATE PROPERTY AND INSULTING ME
This seriously pisses me off and for those who knew what happened, you would know how mcuh this pisses me off

This is my list so far, and I hope I would not have to add on.
By the way I learnt a new word from clarice,LMAO- laughing my ass off@!!!

2006-05-11T04:25:00.000-07:00

You scored as mental. U ARE MENTAL!!!! U NEED HELP!!! SERIOUSLY!!!!!

weird

50%

mental

50%

extreamly weird

44%

really weird

38%

super weird

13%

HOW FREAKIN WEIRD ARE YOU!?
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quizzes

2006-05-11T04:06:00.000-07:00

You scored as powerful vampire.you are a powerful vampire. IM me- metalrocks6666 and go here- http://quiz.ravenblack.net/blood.pl?

weak vampire

63%

powerful vampire

63%

pathetic human

50%

dangerous vampire

25%

depressed vampire

25%

which type of vampire are you??(PICS)
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lalala

2006-04-15T02:51:00.001-07:00

Great, I just realized something today, I want to recognised when I die, I want to be known for what I have done because I am going to led a life worth mentioning, I am not going to spent my remaining years pondering over silly questions like "should I eat rice or noodle?".
I am sure everyone wants to be remembered for something, there is no one in this world who would want to lead a life like a coward , never leaving his/her shell. Even people like that hope to be remembered deep in their hearts no one would every wish that their life was just like a dream, "can and go and forgotten". And if anyone were to tell me that" Hey, you are wrong , I don't want to be remembered." Maybe that person is not thinking deep enough right to the middle of his/her heart where all the dreams,desires,hopes are kept and never were they released cause everyone is scared of failure. They don't dare to fall , afraid of how they would slip into darkness afraid of how others would see them. Many times I hear people saying " wow, look at her,she is so successful , bet its due to her good luck which I lack." To these people , I say" PLS@!!! GET A LIFE!! STOP BEING ENVIOUS OF PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE THEY DARE TO REACH OUT FOR THEIR DREAMS AND YOU BEING A COWARD DON'T DARE TO DO SO!!!" so I guess that would not happen to me, I want to reach out for my dream,maybe I am afraid of failures to but as I type I think I can cope.

BTW sucide should not be a crime it should just be one's stupid decision to escape from reality and selfish decision to make people around them sad.

lalala

2006-04-15T02:51:00.000-07:00

yeah i been tagged!!!

2006-04-14T04:01:00.000-07:00

I got tagged by minling so it goes:

Name 20 ppl you can think of right now at the top of yr head. Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 ppl. ok tag at least 5 ppl..

1) Atobe
2) Keita
3) Kimura
4) Kim Jae Joong
5) Tezuka
6) Fuji
7) Ryoma
8) Clarice
9) Min Ling
10) Cassandra
11) Cinny
12) Stephanie
13) Jirou
14) Carine
15) Wan Qin
16) Lisa
17) Ernest
18) Kah Wai
19) Fang Ying
20) Miss Ow

Don't know why but just started naming all the people I like first like ATOBE!!!!! If you name is on the lsit it doesnt mean anything AND PLS!!! It does not mean that I am in love with you or what , dun read so much into it.

Questions:

1.how did u meet 14?
She was in my sec 2 class.

2.what would you do if u've never met 1?
I would live a life if regrets and misery cause I have yet to meet the hottest person in the world and yet to know what is pretty and nice!!!

3.what would u do if 20 and 9 dated?
OMG!!! If Min Ling ever dates Miss Ow, I will DIE!!! I mean OMG it is so gross but I am sure Miss Ow would be the guy and Min Ling the girl...OMG it is just so gross!!

4.did u ever lik 19?
I like Fang YING??? DEfinitely but as a friend and nothing more.

5.would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
Fuji and Ernest??? NO WAY!!! IF FUJI were to date anyone it should be atobe or tezuka I mean Fuji is so pretty why should he go wif Ernest?? He sould date the pretty guys only then will they make a good couple and Fuji is too tall for ernest!!

6.Describe 3.
hot, Hot, HOt, HOT, HOT but old....

7.Do u tink 8 is attractive?
YES!!! Clarice is so attractive that I am attracted to her not because of how she looks but because I just like her.

8.Tell me sth about 7.
Arrogant, short, snobbish, n stupid green hair monster!!!

9.Do you know any of 12's family?
She has a sister in the same school and a brother in sec one and her parents seems to be really nice people.

10.What's 8's favourite?
Not really that sure but I guess she like english rock (NOT ROCK-pop) Eyeliner, punkish stuff, and not really sure about the rest.

11. what would u do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
Die on the spot, find a way to kill myself before it grosses me out!!! NOt that he is a really horrible person but I just can't stand scenes like that.

12.what language does 15 speak?
English and Chinese as I know. keita!!! Pretty BOYS!!!

13.Who is 9 going out with?
Miss Ow???(HAHA!!!) Dun think she is going out with anyone, is she??

14.how old is 16 now?
14???

15.When's the last time u talked to 13?
Never? Perhaps because I dont speak Jap and he doesnt speak english? jae joong!!!!

16.what is 2's favourite band/singer?
Not sure, Orange range?? But he is my favourite singer

17.would u ever date 4?
Maybe but I guess I would feel inferior cause he looks so pretty.

18.would u ever date 7?
NO!!! never!!! kill me!!!!

19.Is 15 single?
I think so?

20.What is 10's last name?
lee?not very sure

21. would u ever want to be in a serious relationship with 11?
Never!! I dont really like eggs( hah) but i like cinny....

22. was sch does 2 go to?
He doesnt go to school.

23. where does no 6 live?
Japan?? animeworld?

24. wad's ur favourite thing abt 5?
He is in my favourite anime and he is just so cool...

25. hav u seen no 1 naked?
NO!!! I dont think i want to do so cause I am not so sick..

people i am going to tag: Clarice, Min Ling , Cassandra, Cinny and Ernest.

to minling

2006-04-10T02:47:00.000-07:00

This whole thing is dedicated to MINLING!!! ATOBE ROCKS!!! HE IS THE BEST!!! RYOMA SUCKS TO THE CORE!!! (CAZ HE DOES)!!!

again!!!

2006-04-04T20:55:00.000-07:00

Updates: My links still do not work don't know why but I am looking for a solution.

Topic: Life is so good, I am sitting at home right now shaking my legs!! Thought about something after listening to something ,someone around me attempted sucide but that person was saved in the end. This set me thinking why does that person want to end his/her life. I mean all the while people around him/her had always been very caring and nice, cant find a reason why he/she wants to die.
BUt there is one thing that I know, I would never ever commit sucide cause I feel that there is too much in life that I have not experienced I would rather experience more before dying. Besides I think I'm too young to die, I have a life to lead my dying, I am just showing people around me what a discontented person I'm ( not like I care what others think about me that much but still...) Besides I have yet to find the perfect way to die, I had a few options but I crossed out all cause they all seemed so painful and what I want is a peaceful and happy death, like dying in my sleep . I always envied people who died in their sleep cause I feel that in this way I would then be trapped in that happy dream that I have with no pain and suffering!!! AHHH!!! love that idea!!!

Conclusion???- I wouldnt die young!!

lah lah!!

2006-03-26T21:56:00.000-08:00

Loving Holidays!!!!

Problem: Wants w-inds "Thanks" single (actually I am not the one who wants it )
Solution: W-inds to come to Singapore( doesn't really solve the problem but I just want to see them!!!)

TOPIC:
Question one) As I was lazing around doing nothing , I thought about lots of things. How far I hve came from a baby to what I am now...Realized how you have grwoed over the years? Amazed by how your thinking changes as you grow older, the grades changes to from As to Cs. But the point is have we really changed or are we changing just to suit the people around us and if everyone is doing so , doesn't that mean that actually in all of us we have not yet "growed up" as people might say. In simple terms it basically means : "Are we maturing on the surface and if we are , why? What causes the change?" Ever stopped to think about it? I never did too until just now. But I guess there is no right or wrong answer to it , our body and mind is so complex that it would take millions of years to even get the answer to my question.

Question two) Yep another question from me , " How did the Earth or the universe even came about? what is beyond it? what gives life ?" Some things just cannot be explained but if you have the answer please do tell me , cause I am dying toknow the answer to my endless questions and of course to put a full stop to all of it.

LOTS TO SAY

2006-03-21T01:56:00.000-08:00

BACK AGAIN!!!
Problem:
Hate SChool!!! I score so badly!! and I figured that half the stuff that I am learning in school now would not be applied when I enter the society in the future. And to think that my working ability would be judge on these STUPID subjects!!! Pisses me off when I think about it , how I am wasting my time in school how I would have a deprived childhood and teenhood spending my time on things I hate/dislike , sometimes I just feel like taking a break from all this crap ,doing things that I actually take pleasure in doing!!!GIVE ME MY LIFE BACK!!! Is what I would say but as for now things are going rather smoothly except for my lousy and stupid grades....
Life goes on .....
The sad and deprived teenhood goes on(to think this came from me and as I am typing, I cry)...
The stupid and lousy grades continues....
Stress is carved on my skull( whatever!!!)...

Solution:
1) Kill myself----( out!!-its stupid to die young I still have much more to accomplish)
2)Kill all my teachers----(out!!!-may not have a high chance of killing them they might return for revenge)
3)Get expelled----(out!!!- don't want to ruin my "BRIGHT" future)
4)Quit thinking about it and get on with life( thats my choice!!!!)

YAY!!! I am so L.A.M.E!!!
L= lovely
A= adorable
M= modest and sweet
E= expectedly intelligent

YAY!!! I am C.R.A.P.I.N.G!!!
C= cute
R= responsible
A= adorable
P= perfectly nice
I= ingenious
N= nice to everyone(love me!!!)
G= great

I feel so good being an asshole coming up with all these stpud stuff but I thought this might make you think of someone around you( notme ) someone totally unbearable thinking that they are all. ( can't stand this sort of people)!@!!

WElcome

2006-03-18T21:45:00.000-08:00

Updates: Just found out something I think my links do not work ,trying to find a way to make it work.
Article:
Suddenly I realized recently that a lot of people are really unhygienic and the true meaning of " never judge a book by its cover" some people are just so gross!!! That day I was sitting behind this guy who looked really decent and the next thing he was doing was picking his NOSE!!!! How gross is that?? ATTENTION ALL NOSE-PICKERS!!!: if you want to pick your nose, please find somewhere private and pick all you like PLEASE DON'T DO IT IN FRONT OF OTHERS AND SPOIL THEIR WHOLE DAY!!!! and there was once this guy sneezed and there was mucus on his hand and all he did was simply wiping it on his shirt!! How gross can people get?? Are they just to lazy to get a piece of tissue paper to wipe off their mucus or find a private spot to pick their nose or are they just simple inconsiderate and hygienic people ?? My answer is 50-50 for both. And the grossest of the grossest is to peel of your dandrufff flakes on the bus and just throw it into the air and well the flake lands on others giving them a snowy day. This happened to me once this women sitting besdie me was peeling off ner dandruff falkes and she simple threw it away( I don't know where, I was too busy trying to find a new seat) anyway I think it landed on me and from then on when ever I see thsi lady boarding the bus I will wish and pray that she does not sit anywhere within the radius of 3m from me or a better way is for her to get down the bus!!! I know I'm selfish but still my " life is a stake"!!

ALL about it```

2006-03-13T00:27:00.000-08:00

I learn to walk , I learn to cry but why don't I learn how to DIE?? (cause I am not goin to???)
okay nvm I am just answering my own stupid questions with this stupid thing that I would like to call a "Quote" from the Great ME!!(hyper-enthu) (OMG I am so "cute") (NOT!!!!) just reminds me of someone I can't stand....( by the way please forgive my poor spelling)
I hate typing it is such a torture but just to entertain you guys to make your life so meaningful, I have decided to endure this. ( ok never mind ignore this crap just filling up the empty space so it looks nicer)
I didnt have time tp do any post recently because of STRESS-FREE school life, in fact school life is so stress-free that I have like THREE tests in a week!!
Actually the purpose of my blog was not to report to evryone my life like: " I woke up at 5.a.m this morning couldn't go back to sleep" or" I cant stand all this S*** in my life" nope you are all wrong i just set it up to try new blogskins (Yep-its that simple believe it or not--I am a simple person)
Recently somebody got into trouble because of blogging like seriously I feel like screaming out to those people WHERE IS YOUR COMMON SENSE!!! Like I bet they knew what they should say and what not to but wanting to gain attention they wrote stupid things insulting other people and of course getting into trouble...no words to describle their stupidity and thirst for attention

And finally I have a GOOD news to all my fans- since this is holiday week i am going to post on my blog on mosts days since I am so free

I AM BACK!!!

2006-03-13T00:25:00.000-08:00

HI there people!!! Due to the great demands I am BACK!!!! Back to tell you more!!! SO stay TUNE for more updated news!!!!

HOLIDAY!!!!

2005-12-27T00:19:00.000-08:00

OMG!!! I thought I would hate my holiday thought it was not the right time for Japan but when I got there everything was SO GREAT!! It was so hight-tech , now I really think singapore has to upgrade as in compared to there it is like a great difference and everyone dressed so nicely!! Even though it was winter,the ladies were wearing mini skirts exposing their legs while the others were wearing winter wear..Gosh wonder how they handle the strong winds'.
And tokyo disneyland was awesome it was really like I was in a dream and further more it was christmas when I was there double the coolness
Overall IT was really FUN !!!!

battle royale!!!!

2005-12-08T03:31:00.000-08:00

Watched battle royale for the 2ND time today !!! IT was so GOOD , not the blood ,the killing, the dying but the people it self , how are you supposed to survive, thrown on a deserted island ??? ONLY ONE solution that to kill everyone one around you.
Yep! basically thats the plot of the story :DETAILS
This group of japanese high school student were left on an deserted island(not that they wanted to but the government did do for some reason i think it is to decrease the population??)They were told that they were selected for a game called "battle royale" so the rule of the game is that you must kill every singke one around you in order to survive; even your best friend for there would only be one winner(survivor)So the story goes on and they end up killing each other.
Some might say the plot is sadistic but its NOT!!I think it shows life,how the perosn sitting next to you might seem nice to you but for survival he/she would turn just turn nasty and shoot you in the head!!I am not trying to say we should be wary of every single one but maybe dont trust others so much(what i learned)
Then after the movie I began thinking if it was me and my friends left on the island and told to kill each other would I do so?( would you?)
I guess,I would. Well I am not going to wait till I die I have to do something?But maybe I wouldnt ?? I dont know it depends...but for survival I would kill anyone ...I think...EVen best friends

New life

2005-11-28T23:46:00.000-08:00

Attended the first funeral of my life yesterday...it was so sad as in everything was so quiet and everyone was some what different. I didnt dare to look at her face in the coffin she changed so much tat i noe tat i would suffer nightmare if I look..coward?
I dont really tink so, people do many things so as to prove to others tat they are brave while actually every human being does tat at least ones ...even me!!(I am human) but just dont overdo it...
Back to the funeral it was a really new and good experience n may she lay in peace

Class outing

2005-11-23T19:10:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to escape thought it was a class gathering and many were goin turned out to have only ELEVEN people !!!Gosh felt a bit cheated but still it was really fun ..Played the pirate ship like thingy for many times ..boy was it fun and joel that chicken didnt even dare to get on!!!
Played for the whole afternoon and returned home with stars circling my head(thks to all the rides!)
Overall it was really fun if only more people went

new start!!!

2005-11-19T02:34:00.000-08:00

Managed to get a new skin kind of like this one dont y..Musin and movement was stupid the only good think is that this year it was air-conditioned!!!BORIN!!!!But fun at e same time got to know e rest better n pink hair is cute...(i conclude)

all ready~~~

2005-11-17T21:07:00.000-08:00

Found out my class ...3e4 kinda hate it!! dun really like some people~!!! Found out tat steph was e only girl frm 2e2 in 3e1>> wish her gd luck..New year..New start???

New BLOG!!

2005-11-16T06:30:00.000-08:00

Managed to get a little done todae hope u all like it

first post..reasons~~~

2005-11-16T05:25:00.000-08:00

Gosh ..I cant belive it I am actually creatin a blog
Gotta admit something I was somehow really touched when I saw the class blog
time passes really fast so aniway it made me want to recreate a blog.....
WELCOME BACK???